Be sure to subscribe wherever you get your podcast, review and share. I have wanted to have this conversation with Jenifer Faison for YEARS. I first found Jenifer after watching her story on Hulu’s Betrayal: The Perfect Husband, and immediately reached out to her because so much of her story hit home for me. Jenifer had reconnected with her college sweetheart after 20 years, moved across the country, married him and thought she was living her fairy tale. Then one day she came home to find police waiting to arrest her husband for the sexual assault of a student. What followed was the discovery that he had been living an entire double life, including relationships with dozens of other women. We have a very real conversation about what betrayal like that does to you. How it makes you question everything you thought was real, your judgment, your confidence and even yourself. We talk about the shame that can come with being the person who was betrayed, why there aren't always red flags to see, and how incredibly healing it can be to finally realize, I am not the only person who has been through this. Jenifer is an Emmy Award-winning television producer whose career has included Judge Judy, Extreme Makeover: Home Edition, Instant Dream Home and Vanderpump Villa. She also created the hit Betrayal podcast and shared her own story publicly in hopes that another woman going through something similar might hear it and know she can get through it too. Follow her on Instagram And I loved where this conversation went beyond her story because we also got really honest about success, career setbacks, starting over, creating when you don't know what's coming next, and the weird reality that you can accomplish huge things and still have seasons where you're thinking, what the hell am I doing? We both know what it's like to have those earthquake moments where everything around you seems to shatter. Sometimes what grows out of that mess becomes the thing you never could have planned. Jenifer said something toward the end of our conversation that I think sums it up perfectly: we are so much stronger than we could possibly know. Sometimes you really do just have to get up, start again and see what happens next. About Your Host Sarah Centrella is a corporate keynote speaker, executive mindset coach, and multi–bestselling author known for teaching leaders how to create a clear vision for their future and develop the mental fitness to achieve it. She is the author of four books, including Think It, and has worked with executives, sales teams, entrepreneurs, and organizations around the world. Learn how to master Sarah's Think It Method Book her to speak at your next event. Follow Sarah on Insta @sarahcentrella

Listen here or on any of your favorite podcast platforms, just search for The Sarah Centrella Show and subscribe. In this episode of The Sarah Centrella Show, I sit down with Molly Smith, host of the WTF (What the Funk) podcast, to talk about what it really takes to recognize when your life is no longer aligned, trust yourself enough to make a change, and get out of the emotional funks that keep you stuck. Molly shares her journey from a 25+ year corporate career, where so much of her identity and self-worth had become tied to her title and professional success, to completely restructuring her life around alignment, purpose, sobriety, coaching, and energy healing. After reaching the VP level, she began realizing that the career she had worked so hard to build was also draining her. In 2023, she finally told her boss the truth about what was no longer working and negotiated away nearly half of her executive responsibilities, even though it meant accepting a lower title and less money. That decision gave her the mental and emotional space to begin building the next chapter of her life. We talk about career burnout, corporate identity, self-worth, people pleasing, external validation, self-trust, personal reinvention, and what happens when you finally stop making decisions based on who you think you are supposed to be. Molly also shares her sobriety journey and what began as a 100-day alcohol-free experiment in January 2023. She explains the physical, mental, and emotional changes she experienced after removing alcohol from her life and why she ultimately chose to continue living alcohol-free. We also get into something I think is incredibly important when talking about sobriety, stress, anxiety, emotional regulation, and personal growth: removing one coping mechanism does not automatically heal the reason you needed it in the first place. It is incredibly easy to replace drinking with scrolling, binge-watching, overworking, food, shopping, or another behavior that allows you to avoid feeling whatever is underneath it. Molly breaks down her practical framework for getting yourself out of a funk. Instead of immediately trying to think positively or push away a negative emotion, she starts by naming what she is actually feeling. From there, she gets grounded through her breath and body, separates what is within her control from what isn't, and identifies one aligned action she can take next. We also have a really interesting conversation about hustle culture and whether hustle itself is actually the problem. Molly and I both came to a similar conclusion: when hustle is being driven by scarcity, insecurity, fear, comparison, or the belief that your worth depends on how much you accomplish, it will eventually burn you out. But when your actions are connected to purpose, passion, excitement, and something you genuinely want to create, hard work can feel completely different. It becomes aligned action instead of constantly trying to prove yourself. Then we dive into Molly's work as an Emotion Code practitioner and her approach to energy healing and emotional release. Molly explains the Emotion Code theory that emotions that aren't fully processed can remain as what practitioners call "trapped emotions," and how practitioners use muscle testing and an emotional chart to identify the emotion, when it may have originated, and whether they believe it is personal, inherited through a family line, or absorbed from someone else. This leads us into a much bigger conversation about generational patterns, inherited beliefs, scarcity, fear of success, fear of visibility, rejection, low self-esteem, creative insecurity, and the emotional baggage we can unknowingly carry into our careers, relationships, businesses, and personal lives. We also talk about those pivotal moments when you finally advocate for yourself without knowing exactly what the outcome will be. Molly shares how telling the truth inside her corporate role opened the door to opportunities she could not have predicted, including her coaching work, podcast, spiritual journey, and an upcoming book. I share some of my own experiences with those same moments, when saying what I actually wanted and trusting myself changed the trajectory of my career. If you've been feeling stuck, burned out, emotionally overwhelmed, disconnected from your work, questioning your identity, thinking about leaving a corporate career, exploring sobriety, rebuilding your self-worth, learning to trust yourself, or trying to understand why you keep repeating the same emotional patterns, this conversation gives you a completely different way to look at what might be keeping you in that funk and how to begin moving forward. We cover corporate burnout, career change, sobriety, alcohol-free living, emotional healing, Emotion Code energy healing, trapped emotions, generational patterns, inherited trauma and beliefs, self-worth, self-trust, emotional regulation, aligned action, mindset, personal development, nervous system grounding, fear of success, fear of visibility, limiting beliefs, spiritual growth, executive career transitions, identity shifts, confidence, people pleasing, external validation, entrepreneurship, coaching, personal reinvention, and how to finally get yourself out of a funk. About Your Host Sarah Centrella is a corporate keynote speaker, executive mindset coach, and multi–bestselling author known for teaching leaders how to create a clear vision for their future and develop the mental fitness to achieve it. She is the author of four books, including Think It, and has worked with executives, sales teams, entrepreneurs, and organizations around the world. Book her to speak at your next event. Follow Sarah on Insta @sarahcentrella

SUBSCRIBE (and REVIEW) on Apple Podcast, Spotify, Audible or anywhere you get your podcast. In this episode of The Sarah Centrella Show, I sit down with Nancy Bruce, the go-to guide for finding love after 50 and host of the Finding Love Podcast. Nancy brings a wealth of knowledge and experience to the table, sharing her insightful tips for manifesting love and navigating the world of dating in midlife, particularly on dating apps. We delve into the importance of protecting your mental health while dating and discuss strategies to maintain confidence throughout the process. Nancy shares her own dating stories, offering relatable anecdotes that resonate with listeners. Whether you're actively seeking love or simply curious about the journey of finding love later in life, this episode is packed with valuable advice. Nancy's wisdom and expertise provide actionable insights for women who are looking for love and navigating the complexities of dating in midlife. Tune in to gain invaluable tips and perspectives on manifesting love and building fulfilling relationships after 50. Follow Nancy on Instagram @nancy.h.bruce About your host: Sarah Centrella is the best-selling author of several self-help books. She is a master life coach, manifesting expert, and motivational speaker, and Founder of VIVIAMO which provides personal development coaching to corporate teams.

Learn Sarah Centrella’s proven 4-step Think It Method™ to manifest your ideal future, build mental fitness, shift your mindset, grow confidence, overcome limiting beliefs and take action toward the life you want. Creating the life you want is a learned skill and this is where you learn it. Books Client Feedback Press Your "What If" Life Begins Now Why Sarah Created the Think It Method™ Intensive For the last 15 years, Sarah has been teaching people how to change their thinking, get clear on what they want, build confidence, overcome limiting beliefs, and intentionally create the life they want. She has taught this work through four bestselling books, private coaching, corporate keynotes, workshops and many online programs. Over time, she built a LOT of tools, exercises, homework and methods that worked incredibly well, but it was in four books, three courses and two methods. So, in 2026 she sat down and pulled the very best of everything she's been teaching for years into one streamlined, simplified system. The Think It Method™ Intensive is the most complete version of her work, built around the four step Think It Method™. F or the first time ever, here is the entire coaching system: Dream It. Think It. See It. Do It. Sarah's Story You know you want more for your life, that's why you are here. It's not by accident, there is always a reason. That's how manifesting works. Maybe you want more money, or more confidence, more success, more love, more freedom, more experiences, more of the life you keep imagining. The Think It Method™ gives you the step-by-step process Sarah has spent 15 years using to help people figure out exactly what they want, change the thinking that keeps getting in their way, and start creating it. What You'll Learn Inside the Think It Method Intensive Step One Dream It You can’t intentionally create a life you’ve never taken the time to define. Most people know they want more money, a better career, an incredible relationship, more freedom, better health, more travel or simply to feel happier, but they’ve never gotten truly specific about what their ideal life would look like across ALL of those areas. Dream It helps you figure that out at it's biggest and best, so you can begin manifesting it today rather than waiting for your dreams to magically appear. Sarah walks you through the same exercises she has used with private coaching clients for years, including her Live List, What If, and Life Plan Story, to help you get incredibly clear on what you really want in your relationships, career and ambitions, mind and body, passions and joy, and wealth and abundance. And she teaches you how to dream BIG. You’ll stop filtering what you want through limiting beliefs and "reality" so you can begin manifesting a life you can hardly even imagine on day one. Watch a Full Lesson From Inside the Course Get a real look inside the Dream It step with Sarah’s complete Life Plan Story coaching and assignment, exactly as it appears in the Think It Method™ Intensive. Step Two Think It Everyone says “mindset is everything,” but very few people teach you what to actually DO when you’re spiraling, doubting yourself, comparing, overthinking, feeling anxious, stuck in a limiting belief or talking yourself out of what you want. Think It gives you simple mental fitness tools you can use in real time to change those patterns. You’ll learn how to build confidence, shift your identity, remove limiting beliefs, protect your energy, reduce stress and anxiety, and train your thinking to support the life you want to create. These tools work because they are practical. When fear and doubt creep in, when confidence drops, or your brain starts telling you all the reasons you can’t do something, now you’ll know exactly what to do to move through it. This is how we actively and intentionally become the best versions of ourselves and how we stop self-sabotaging behaviors. For many people, this is the part of the method that creates the fastest and most noticeable change. Step Three See It This is the manifesting method Sarah is most famous for. Based on her #1 bestselling book Futureboards, See It teaches you how to create a vision board that works with incredible accuracy by giving your brain a clear, visual picture of the future you want to create. Sarah has been teaching this method for more than 15 years. Her original blog reached over 4 million views, people around the world have used Futureboards™ to manifest everything from money and career opportunities to relationships, travel, homes and once-in-a-lifetime experiences, and it remains one of her most searched and recognized teachings today. Inside this step, you’ll learn the complete Futureboards™ process, how to choose the right images, how to use visualization correctly, and how to keep your future so clear and emotionally real that your mind begins looking for ways to make it happen. If you want to manifest the life of your dreams, this is the method. Step Four Do It This is the step most manifestation teachings leave out: action. Do It shows you how to close the gap between where you are today and the life you wrote into existence in Dream It. You’ll learn how to start living pieces of that future now, recognize the actions and opportunities that move you toward it, and prepare yourself for the growth that comes with getting what you asked for. You will create tangible benchmarks that make the path forward clear and actionable, giving you power over what you control. Creating your dream life also means that you transform into the version of you who can hold it, expand with it, and keep growing into everything you will manifest. And lastly, you will learn how receive . How to recognize your manifestation so you don't miss it when it arrives. Everything You Need, All in One Place Inside the Think It Method™ Intensive, you’ll get: All-new coaching created specifically for the Think It Method™ Shorter, more impactful coaching videos and audios Brand-new journal prompts, personal work and handouts Downloadable book chapters, homework and exercises The complete process for identifying what you want in all areas of life All 7 of Sarah’s core mental fitness tools Limiting-belief work Identity-shifting and confidence-building exercises Futureboards™ coaching and exercises Visualization practices Action-focused coaching to help you close the gap between where you are now and where you want to be Additional resources throughout the course All of it is brand new and built from the strongest tools, current coaching methods and homework from Sarah’s four bestselling books and 15 years of coaching, simplified into one complete four-step system. Testimonials This Is for You If... You know you want more from your life, but you’re not totally clear on what that looks like yet You want to manifest more money, love, success, freedom, travel, experiences or career opportunities You keep getting stuck in the same negative thought patterns or limiting beliefs You want to build real confidence and change the way you see yourself You know your mindset is getting in your way, but you don’t know what to actually DO when the fear, doubt or anxiety hits You’ve tried vision boards, affirmations, manifestation or mindset work before and want a complete system that pulls everything together You’re going through a reinvention, identity shift or major life transition You have big goals but struggle with consistency, follow-through or knowing what to do next You’re tired of consuming more advice and are ready to start applying the tools in your real life You want a step-by-step process for intentionally creating the next version of your life If you see yourself in even a few of these, the Think It Method™ was built for you. 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Corporate keynote speaker, best-selling author and executive coach Sarah Centrella teaches practical mindset and mental fitness tools that help teams and leaders reduce stress, perform under pressure, and create meaningful change at work and in life. Sarah Centrella Corporate Keynote Speaker • Executive & Team Coach • #1 Best-selling author I'm a paragraph. Click here to add your own text and edit me. It's easy. Helping leaders, teams, and audiences create a clear vision for the future and build the mental fitness, mindset, and resilience to achieve it. Clients Include Sarah equips audiences with practical, proven mental fitness tools they can apply in real time to manage stress, stay focused, and think clearly under pressure. Her approach goes beyond inspiration, giving people the skills to navigate change, reduce burnout, and perform at a higher level while improving their overall wellbeing. AS FEATURED BY View National Press Keynote Speaker High-impact keynotes that equip audiences with practical mental fitness tools, powerful perspective shifts, and strategies that create lasting change. Sarah teaches leaders, teams, and organizations how to think clearly under pressure, navigate change with confidence, and build the mental fitness required to perform and thrive in today’s workplace and beyond. Explore speaking topics and check availability: Mental Fitness Keynote Resilience Fitness Keynote Vision-Setting Keynote Coaching Executive & Team ABOUT SARAH Private, high-level coaching for leaders ready to define their next chapter and elevate how they think, lead, and live. Build mental fitness, strengthen decision-making, and navigate pressure and change with clarity and confidence. Private Coaching Join Cohort Available Now! Think It, practical guide to mental fitness and mindset training designed to help you think clearly, stay in control, and create the results you want in every area of your life. In this book, Sarah teaches the same proven tools she has used for over a decade with leaders, teams, and high performers to stop negative thought spirals, quiet self-doubt, protect energy, and stay focused under pressure. Simple, actionable tools you can apply immediately. Buy Think It now on Amazon , Barnes & Noble , Target or wherever books are sold. SARAH'S BOOKS Podcast Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts. Listen Now Blog Subscribe to Sarah's coaching blog on Substack for tips, tools and all her articles. Read & Subscribe

About Sarah Centrella, best-selling author, executive & mindset coach, corporate keynote speaker About Keynote speaker & Best-selling author Sarah Centrella #1 Best-selling author of 4 personal growth books on mindset and vision setting | Executive & Mindset Coach Corporate Keynote Speaker | Host of the globally rated top 2% podcast, The Sarah Centrella Show Press Speaking Private Coaching Podcast Hello and welcome — I’m so glad you're here. I’ve spent the past 15+ years helping people transform their lives, their mindset, and their future. What started in 2009 with my blog, Thoughts.Stories.Life ., grew into a global body of work rooted in one mission: to lead by example, share my story honestly, and teach practical tools that create real, lasting results. In 2017, as a single mom of three, I took the biggest leap of my life. I left my corporate sales career to pursue my coaching practice full-time — no safety net, no guarantees, just a deep belief that my methods could change lives. That leap turned into a career that has taken me around the world, onto major stages, and into boardrooms and living rooms alike. Since then, I’ve written multiple best-selling books, and coached thousands of people — from entrepreneurs and executives to professional athletes, celebrities, and everyday people who want more for their lives. My Substack Blog Official Bio 4x Best-Selling Author | Executive & Team Coach | Keynote Speaker | Host of top 2% Global Podcast Sarah Centrella is an internationally recognized keynote speaker, executive coach, and the bestselling author of four traditionally published books, including Think It, Hustle Believe Receive, and #Futureboards. For nearly 15 years, she has coached Fortune 500 companies, C-suite executives, professional athletes, and high-performing teams, including leaders at Nike, Pinterest, Verizon, and Sony. Her work has been featured in The Wall Street Journal, Good Morning America, ABC News, The New York Times, Cosmopolitan, Prevention, and Inc., and she is a contributor to ABC’s morning show AM Northwest. Sarah is also the host of globally ranked top 2% podcast The Sarah Centrella Show. Buy Sarah Centrella's books now on Amazon , Barnes & Noble , Target or wherever books are sold. This is my personal origin story Here's a chapter from my memoir, Anomaly , that tells the explosive moment of my origin story. Since then, I have used the tools I now teach to transform my life many times over, including traveling to 27 countries, writing four traditionally published books, flying on private jets, taking women on retreats through Europe, coaching NBA and NFL players and corporate executives, and raising a son who played football for the Oregon Ducks. My methods work, and I am living proof. "A text message blew up my life. At the time I was a 34-year-old stay-at-home wife and mother, trying my best to get through the day intact and find a way for our family to get back on our feet. We'd had a rough go of it the previous several years, and I felt mostly responsible for that. It had been my idea to sell our first home, the one we'd bought three years earlier when Kanen was two, fixed up and flipped for a nice profit in about eighteen months. I was working in corporate sales at the time, making a decent salary plus commission, benefits, and a 401k, so selling it for a high profit seemed like the sensible decision. But Mark hadn't wanted to. He hated my restless nature and my willingness to up and move at the drop of a hat. He wanted roots, and that house represented the stability he craved. Plus, it was what we could comfortably afford. He had agreed though, and we'd gotten a nicer house, using our profit for the down payment. And then the bubble burst and the housing crisis hit us hard. We'd overpaid for the new house and were now sizably underwater. Then I'd gotten pregnant with Mira and Izzy and had to quit my job to stay home with them. Foreclosure was the only option when we began falling months behind on the mortgage. So now here we were, living in a shitty rental house that neither of us wanted to be in, barely making ends meet on only his salary, and every day Mark got farther away. I could feel him withdrawing, carrying the loss of everything we'd worked to build as personal failure. And resenting me for putting us in that position. I didn't know how to fix it. So I poured everything into being the best homemaker, wife and mother I could be. I made baby food from scratch, clipped coupons to save money, made dinner out of nothing in the pantry or fridge, trying to show him that it was alright. That we were okay. That we'd get through it. On this day, September 9th, I am doing all my normal household chores like I always do, looking forward to 3:00 PM when the Oprah show comes on channel 8. This is the highlight of my day, the thing I look forward to most. The twins are sixteen months old and always everywhere at once. They both started walking before turning one and keeping up with them while making sure Kanen doesn't get overlooked is exhausting. For this one hour, though, the girls are usually asleep for their afternoon nap and Kanen has gotten home from kindergarten, had his snack, and is unwinding with Dora the Explorer in the den. This time is for me and the laundry. When the show starts and I see the day's topic I am more than disappointed. How to know if your partner is cheating. God, I hate it when she has boring shows like this, I think, picking up the laundry basket and heading to fold and put away the girls' clothes in their room instead. But I don't turn it off. And later, when I pass back through the living room, the tip on the screen says: if they hide their phone or turn it face down, that's how you'll know. This doesn't consciously register as I go about the rest of my chores. I start dinner — cowboy spaghetti, a family favorite. I try to have it ready when Mark gets home each day around 4:30, since he's up and out the door for work at 4:00 AM most days. As the sauce simmers on the stove and the water comes to a boil, I walk into the living room to turn off the TV and notice his work van is already parked in front of the house. I take a closer look and see that he is on a phone call. Oh, that's why he hasn't come in. I check on the girls, who are busy playing with their toys, and ask Kanen if he has any homework he should start on at the dining room table before dinner. I taste the sauce. It's ready. I pull it off the burner and drain the pasta. I am dishing up everyone's plates when Mark comes in behind me. I smell him before I know he's there — he always comes home covered in dust, caked in concrete and epoxy from whatever job site he's been working at all day, and both smells burn my nose. I turn my face up to him so he can kiss me hello. "Hi baby, how was your day?" he asks. "It was good, the usual, nothing too exciting. Although I did take a hilarious video of Mira dancing — she was really shakin' it!" I smile and hand him his plate with a double portion of steaming pasta. "Mmm, smells good," he says, taking it and reaching into the fridge to grab a can of Coors Light. He sets both on the dining room table and then gathers the kids for dinner, putting the girls in their respective booster seats and chatting with Kanen, who is telling him all about what he's learning in Spanish immersion kindergarten this week. It's so cute to hear my son use his new Spanish words. It makes my heart smile every time. We sit down to dinner and before I know it everyone is done and Mark is clearing his plate and putting it in the sink. "I'm gonna go hop in the shower real quick, get this crap off me," he says, bending down to kiss me. I get the girls out of their seats and wipe their hands and faces with a wet cloth, gather the rest of the dishes adding them to the growing pile in the sink. I can hear the hot water running down the hall when suddenly there is a flash of a thought, running across my brain like a neon reader board sign. Where is his phone? In the eight years we've been married I have never once thought to check this man's phone. Never for a second wondered where it was or who he talked to. That is not the kind of relationship we have. But the instant I have this thought, my blood runs cold, then hot. It is in this moment that I know. I quickly check the charger by our bed. Not there. The one in the kitchen. Not there either. Now I am frantic because I know, I just know. I go back to the bedroom and look through his drawers. Nothing. There’s only one place left to look so I ease the bathroom door open. It is thick with steam, but I can see the clothes he's planning to put on after the shower, folded neatly on the counter. I rifle through them until I feel it in the pocket of his clean shorts. I pull it out, hands shaking so violently I'm afraid I'll drop it and out myself. I am not sure what he'll do if he sees me with it. I step back into the hallway and close the door as quietly as I can. I open it and see an unread text notification. It is from the only other woman he is around on a regular basis — the office manager at his work. That's exactly who I thought it would be from. I tap the notification and read her text: “I can’t wait till you’re all mine. Finally free. No more sharing 🙂” My whole body is shaking, and I am so numb that it takes me a minute to realize that I’ve dropped the phone. I reach down, pick it up, and head to the living room to scoop the girls up, hoisting one on each hip, then depositing them in their respective cribs. I ask Kanen, who’s been writing out his Spanish words at the dining room table, if he’d like to watch Horton Hears a Who! in the den instead. He jumps up excitedly and heads to the den, me quickly following behind. “You know what?” I say, situating him on the couch and grabbing his portable DVD player and headphones. “Why don’t you watch it on this instead of the big TV, okay?” He does not object, taking both from me and hitting play. I walk back to the bathroom, throw the door open with enough force that it hits hard against the bathtub. I pull the shower curtain back in one quick motion, then reach down to turn the water off. He is standing there, soap covering his face and hands. “What, what the hell?” he stammers. “Get the fuck out!” I say, and point to the open bathroom door. Strangely, he says nothing. He does not protest. He grabs the towel off the toilet seat, dries his head, face, and hands. I am standing in the hall, pointing to the front door now. “GET. THE. FUCK. OUT!” It is all I can say. No other words come. I watch him struggle to get his dripping body into his shorts, one leg and then the other. I watch as he pulls his shirt over his head and then unsticks it from his body, pulling it the rest of the way down over his stomach. I watch him slip into his Doc Marten sandals. He pushes past me and goes into the girls’ room. They are each happily standing in their cribs, jumping on the mattress, holding on to the sides and talking in gibberish to each other. He bends down and kisses each one on the head. “I love you,” he says to them. Then he comes out and pushes past me again, heading to the den. I hear him tell Kanen that he has to go back to work tonight and he’ll see him soon. “I love you, peanut.” I have not moved, still standing at the end of the hall, pointing to the front door. He walks past me now, and without another word, walks to the front door, opens it, takes two steps, then stops. He turns to look at me, pulling off his wedding ring and tossing it in my general direction. It tings and rolls, coming to a stop by the bookcase and falling over on its side. He closes the door behind him. Maybe ten minutes has passed from the time I had the initial thought in the kitchen, to the time he’s walked out the door. I grab my phone and walk into the backyard, far enough away from the house that the kids can’t hear, and call Emily. I am instantly hysterical. “Mark has been having an affair,” I manage to get out. “He left me.” The rest of this day is a blur. All I know is that she is coming through the front door before Kanen’s movie is over and the twins are still jabbering to each other, playing with toys in their cribs. I am catatonic. I’m pretty sure she has me go lie down, then takes over taking care of the kids through bath and bedtime. When I know they are asleep, I come out to the living room and slump to the floor. I do not have the energy or desire to continue standing. I am crying again, lying on my stomach, my face against the hardwood. The floor is not moving. It is the only solid thing I know. Everything else is spinning out of control. “I cannot do this,” I say to Emily, who is sitting on the couch, totally unsure what to do or how to comfort me. I don’t blame her. I wouldn’t know either. Neither of us knows anyone who’s ever been through anything like this. None of her friends are even married, and none of mine are divorced. And since this is pre-social media, I am pretty sure I'm the only person on the planet who's ever gone through something this humiliating, this… destructive… this horrific. What am I supposed to do now? How can I support my children? We can’t even make ends meet with his salary, how can I do it with none? What do I do tomorrow? Will there even be a tomorrow? Who do I tell? What do I say happened? Shit, we need diapers and formula for the girls’ nighttime bottle, and I got an electric shut-off notice today for non-payment. What am I going to do? I can’t do this. My thoughts race and spin. Over and over in my head, I try to solve this problem. How can I take care of my children without an income, or a dollar to my name? Without a job? And how can I get a job that pays enough to pay for daycare? I can’t afford the rent on this house anymore, but how can I get an apartment with no job and destroyed credit from our recent bankruptcy and foreclosure? Fuck, the bank account is only in his name, and so is the car. I can’t do this. It is in this moment, the worst one of my life to that point, the one where I lay on the floor trying desperately to find a way out, that I hear a voice. You can name it anything that makes sense to you, but I think it was my deepest inner self, and it said… What if you can?" *Read more chapters from my memoir Anomaly here